It’s been so long since I’ve blogged… there’s so much I want to share about the profound changes in my body, my thinking, my illnesses, and so on. I hope I’ll be able to catch up soon because I want a record of this journey. I just have had zero interest in blogging at all about anything for quite awhile.
Anyway, I think I’ve lost 50 pounds since late December. I think I weighed 275 or 276 the last time I went to the doctor. I went a week ago Monday and weighed 226. The scales at the gym say 230, tho’… Gosh. Mom told me today she asked Daisy to weigh herself and she weighed 47 pounds. I’ve lost a Daisy!!!
My clothes are fitting so differently, I can’t believe it. Things that fit well are way too big. Things that were too tight are perfect or a little bit big/small. I’m wearing stuff I haven’t worn in years and I’m sad about some new clothes that I absolutely love that don’t fit anymore. Last Sunday I needed a pair of shorts and none of mine fit. I had to dig through a box of shorts I haven’t worn in years and found a pair that fits very well. I am just amazed by this.
I’ve been feeling so different. I look different in the mirror, so I’d been starting to wonder why people haven’t said a word. I’ve gotten lots of “You look good”s and a few “You look healthy”s, but that’s it. On Tuesday, Brenda came in to my room and said, “I wanted to say that I’ve noticed you’ve lost some weight. Congratulations. You look good. You’ve been working on it?” I told her, “Actually, no.” and briefly explained about how I’d been sick so much (“I’ve noticed that, yes” from Brenda) and how I’d decided to focus on my health. Losing weight was an unexpected, but nice result. And I thanked her for noticing. We chatted a bit more – I really appreciated her coming in to tell me privately. That showed real respect and caring.
Yesterday when I was waiting for a union steward meeting to begin, I was chatting with Ron and Cheryl, waiting for the others to show up. Ron noticed that I’d brought a tomato and blueberries. He said, “That’s great – eating several small meals.” That led to a discussion about eating, bla, bla. Then Cheryl said “You look smaller around the shoulders and chest, you look slimmer overall.” Ron agreed. That was so nice of them.
Today Clark made a point of stopping me and saying, “I wanted to tell you that I’ve noticed you’ve lost weight. You look smaller(signed 2-handed slim-down with the B handshape drawn into the body) and better.” I thanked him and said yeah. He then said, “Being sick helped?” with a grin. I said, “A little bit,” with a grin. “And you’d been working on it before for awhile, right?” I shrugged, said, “Actually, no. Remember I told you about how I was focusing on my health? Well, this happens to be a nice side effect, and hey, I’m not complaining!” He said something else and I thanked him again.
Later today Cheryl said, “You do look healthier. You look good.” Aw. How sweet. *smile* Just paged her thanking her.
This is such an incredible experience. It’s a sea change that I never anticipated. I do hope to record this journey better than I have thus far. I feel like a whole different person in so many ways.
